How do you show up for life?
There are so many different domains into which we can “show up”, and it seems to me that there is no right or wrong way to balance how much attention we bring to any domain at any time, there seems to be only choice, awareness, action.
It seems that we are each such amazingly complex entities.
We have these bodies and brains which seem to be able to do certain sorts of things all by themselves, without our awareness having much impact at all. They seem to be the result of a process of evolution by natural selection happening over some 4 billion years on this planet, and from an information theory perspective can be thought of as strategies in action filtered over that evolutionary time bringing certain probabilities of dispositions to being into the present instance of our existence.
At the next level we all get born into this cultural existence, of family, community, language, technology, and all the wider social groups we engage within our existence.
Each aspect of culture comes with its implicit sets of relationships and stories about relationships of the distinguished elements within that culture, and its actual underlying systemic sets of relationships.
At the next level comes our individual sets of awareness.
It seems clear to me that our experiential existence is a software entity resident in a software model of reality created in the brain of our bodies by the complex sets of interactions of information and information processing systems of our specific body, which systems have been delivered by evolutionary selection over the life history encapsulated in that 4 billion years of existence as life.
It seems that this brain is not restricted to holding a singular entity, and can (and most often does) house multiple entities simultaneously, and typically any one system (speech, locomotor, hearing, touch, smell, abstract thought, etc) is controlled exclusively by one of those software entities (though others may share the information). Thus it is, that we can both write, and observe ourselves writing, and observe our body do other things, at the same time. We can acknowledge a singularity of our physical being, and also often a multiplicity of simultaneous aspects of being. (In this context I like the Walt Whitman quote “Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes.”)
It seems to be possible to create abstract levels of being, and to create gaps between the subconscious impulses to action (at every level of awareness and action) and the execution of those impulses, and to insert choice into that gap when we choose.
It seems possible to widen or to narrow that gap, to allow for greater consideration, or more rapid response, and we seem to be able to consciously alter the context of such changes (though there are also many subconscious systems also evolved to alter that gap, quite independent of any level of our conscious choices – so there is a level of uncertainty at every level of awareness and “control”).
So I try to maintain balances at all levels of these aspects of being, sometimes maintaining several simultaneously, sometimes giving one or other near total dominance, sometimes being very focussed on achievement of very specific outcomes in reality, sometimes open to whatever possibilities to action reality presents (requiring an emptiness that is almost devoid of purpose). Sometimes intent on the crafting of a message, other times open to the messages of others.
So there is a mixing, at many different levels, and of both the number and degree of types and levels of being.
And it seems that each can have a certain level of utility in certain contexts, and it seems that there is no way to predict with absolute certainty what that utility might be, and with practice one seems to get a certain level of accuracy and reliability at making such choices, on an instant by instant basis. There seem to be aspects of both art and science to the choice of context (at every level of context).
And for all the conscious level systems that may be present, they are always vastly outnumbered by the subconscious level systems, and it usually pays to have at least some of the conscious level systems alert to messages from the subconscious.
So my life has a rich tapestry (a varied landscape) of existence, from the intensely intentional, to openness to the reality of being, to creating an emptiness that is a close approximation to pure creativity (a close approximation to empty of cultural or genetic influence).
And I’m never quite sure who/what I am going to be when, and I do seem to have developed some capacities to action that are not particularly common, and those do seem to supply a rich and interesting existence, in the showing up of being.