When do you feel exposed and vulnerable? What makes it right again?
I feel exposed and vulnerable most of the time.
The Helen Keller quote about “security is mostly an illusion” is a favourite of mine.
I am afraid of meteors and comets.
I am afraid of large scale volcanism.
I am afraid of large scale landslip causing major tsunami.
I am afraid of global pandemic – either natural or man-made.
I am afraid of the devastation caused to both human and natural systems by the naked greed of many people and the corruption at all levels of governance.
I am afraid of the profits made by the “military industrial complex”.
I am afraid of the effects of poverty on our ability to learn and to think, and to feel part of the larger human community.
I am afraid of the effects of economics on human thought, and the illusions that the unethical use of money fosters.
What makes it right again?
Reading authors like Jared Diamond, seeing websites like John Fullerton’s http://www.capitalinstitute.org.
Being part of communities like this one of Laurie’s, and anewgaia.ning.com.
Being out in my local community and being part of the Lions Club with their ethic and motto “We Serve”.
Being part of community groups like Forest and Bird, Kaikoura Tramping Club, Kaikoura Marine and Coastal protection Society, Kaikoura Coastal Guardians, Kaikoura District Council.
Seeing people coming together, with growing awareness of environmental and social issues, with ever wider networks.
Getting out and walking the dogs, playing golf, or tramping.
Perhaps the difference, if there is one, is that I am so used to working through fear, of feeling the fear and doing it anyway, that the cancer diagnosis really wasn’t all that different from day to day life.
It was just one more thing to look in the eye, to accept, and then to get on with doing what I feel willing to do, with what I have.
Thanks for that.
Maybe bravery is in the eye of the beholder.
I don’t do a lot that is “rash”, and I see dangers most places I look. So most of my life is spent finding the safest and easiest way of navigating through those dangers to do what I want to do.
Maybe bravery is a misnomer. Maybe it is simply developing skill sets that allow one to do things in relative safety that seem to others lacking those skill sets to be difficult and dangerous.
I scare easily. I am not particularly rash. And I am willing to trust my intuitions and my skills.